Katia Raina

The Magic Mirror

2012

I hesitated and debated with myself on whether to do this, and finally decided that the Magic Mirror just wouldn’t be the same without a traditional — if belated — New Year post :)

I’ve been thinking: why does the New Year excite us so much — why does it inspire and scare us so?

A poem a friend of mine wrote a few days ago led me to an answer. I think the key to the New Year’s is in the word “new.” A new relationship. A new child. A new house. A new draft. A new story. A new year. Newness means hope. Another chance.

Last year — the old year — was good for me in so many ways, great even. It brought countless moments of happiness and love. It brought new revelations, achievements, new lessons learned. And yet, if I said the year brought me everything I wanted I would be lying.

I didn’t sign that contract I’ve been dreaming about.

But it’s not even that — what was worse — way worse — was that I didn’t finish the story I thought would surely be making the rounds by now.

That was my heaviest disappointment of the year.

But that’s the way it is, isn’t it?

At the start of each year, we are nervous and hopeful. As the ball drops, our hearts lift with desire. We hope that maybe this year we will get it right. This year we will re-invent ourselves.

But what I realize now, is that there is no need (at least for me) to keep trying to be this new person every year. This shiny idea of the perfect me is just that — an idea.

Here is what I am beginning to understand: every year will bring joy –and disappointment.

And the two are interwoven together tightly as the strands of hair in a braid.

My not completing the novel I hoped to finish led me to re-evaluate my revision methods. It pushed me to try new things.

Saying “hello” to 2012, I am going easy on hopes and wishes this time around, while continuing to focus on my goals. The things I can do. Revisions. Completions. Submissions.

I don’t care about a book contract in 2012.

Okay, maybe that’s a lie. I care. But I don’t wish for it. Nope. I am hereby striking it from my list of hopes and wishes for this year. In fact, I am keeping that list very short, and here it goes:

To reach my own goals. Hit my own deadlines.

That’s all I want for this year.

Happy 2012, everyone!

May your joys this year outweigh your disappointments. May you have the strength, committment and wisdom to keep your resolutions, and may those bring you closer to your dreams.

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January 6, 2012 - Posted by | Personal Mirror, Writing Mirror | , , , , ,

8 Comments »

  1. Sounds like you are on the right track. Live and forgive. Forgive yourself for being human! It’s true – all our lives are a mix of success and failure, accomplishment and falling short. I predict a really good year to a great gal with a phenomenal attitude.

    Comment by joycemoyerhostetter | January 6, 2012 | Reply

    • Thank you for the beautiful comment, Joyce. I hope your prediciton is right :) If I keep to my goals, then my year WILL be a good one! And I hope your year is one for completions as well ;)

      Comment by Katia Raina | January 7, 2012 | Reply

  2. That’s a thought-provoking post, Katia. As always. Especially loved this part:

    Here is what I am beginning to understand: every year will bring joy –and disappointment.

    And the two are interwoven together tightly as the strands of hair in a braid.

    Happy 2012 to you too! And much joy! I’m so happy to have met you and gotten to know you a little in 2011. Hope to get to know you better in 2012.

    I never make resolutions because I know I won’t keep them, but there’s always the longing in the back of my mind for new goals (like a contract, or at least an agent!). You’ve given me something to think about. Maybe I’ll work on my revision skills this year and that will be enough!

    Comment by Joanne Fritz | January 7, 2012 | Reply

    • Thank you for your kind words, Joanne. I figure, let’s focus on what we CAN do — on the things that are actually up to us — things like revisions, completions and submissions. And let the Universe take care of the other stuff. :)
      Once again, Happy New Year! I am so glad to have met you, too!

      Comment by Katia Raina | January 7, 2012 | Reply

  3. I loved this post, Katia, because this is how I’ve been feeling about goals and resolutions.

    This is the first new year in a long time that I haven’t made a long to-do or wish list during the last day of December or first day of January, although I do have some realistic goals in mind. I know I can’t be a brand new person, 300x better than I was last year, but I can work hard and take things day by day. And when real life happens I need to be more self-forgiving, because I’ve been too hard on myself in the past.

    Happy 2012!

    Comment by Medeia Sharif | January 8, 2012 | Reply

    • I’m so glad this spoke to you, M! :) Sounds like a good plan to me. Let’s check in with each other at the end of 2012 and see how this went.

      Comment by Katia Raina | January 8, 2012 | Reply

  4. A very thoughtful post. I think we all need to ease up on ourselves occasionally and concentrate on working on the things we have the power to change. Everything else can take care of itself :-)

    Comment by Sarah Pearson | January 9, 2012 | Reply

    • Exactly, Sarah! Here is to a productive year for us all!!

      Comment by Katia Raina | January 9, 2012 | Reply


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